Marital Mess

These words of mine that I write or I wrote, I spoke, I still speak from my heart take note.
Through my words, by my voice, by my actions, sounds that are heard, dramas and reactions.
From the origin, genuine it would seem, until a fault or a crack from within, I am stuck in between.
But it's there, you are aware I am engulfed with fear. You are subdued by their views Oh my dear.
What we shared, not impaired, beyond compare. Unsure what to bear, so much pressure to beware.
A true start, steady moving to a happy ending. Got the highs and the lows, hiccups from the trending.
Things I did were unbelievable, I admit. To meet my demons, I confront them with immeasurable guilt.
That I am as bad as they come, as they are or even worse, fighting tendencies, urges coming with force.
It's a battle and I need all fortifications available. With you by my side, behind me I am sure I'll be able.
To conquer my desires requires fuel for the fires. The friends, the fiends, I'll disconnect all ill wires
I know all I owe you, it's work in progress honey. I can afford it even if it can't be bought with money.
My love for you is the length, breadth, height and the depth of the years beyond forever and time in heaven or on earth
Before you there was none, beyond that it's the same
Tough to be mortal needing fame and not prone to shame
Marital mess, format, reset or click undo
Must stick to the path since I said "I do"