I am not a person to speak to that, but I just gotta say that accepting yourself, no matter what, is in my humble opinion is important. And the fact that you finally "came out to yourself" and had the strength to tell other people is just amazing and commendable. I wish you nothing more but happiness and understanding. Welcome to steemit and thank you for sharing your story, which I am sure will inspire many other people struggling with themselves and the society around them. Much love!