And that is why you created this game. Its not a game. This is why you wanted to feel something.

.......to have my chest ripped open and heart torn out over and over and over again in a million different overt and subtle ways........to shut off feeling (what else to do?!).....to begin to feel once again, once I had stopped 'playing' at being numb.........to pulsate with the energy of anguish as the great un-numbing takes place......and all this within the confines of a sandboxed game of virtual reality that may stretch up and down in an infinite number of layers, devised by yours truly and supported by all of you (thanks^💜).......