Us, meeting at the middle of nowhere,
I, giving you the warmest smile.
You, smiling back at me.

I asked you "what's up", you never say a word.
You just keep on smiling and keep looking into my eyes.
The eyes you once loved the most and the eyes you once hated after I broke up with you.
My heart melted.

Staring back at you, reminiscing all the happiness and pain you brought into my life,
I just realized,
You are the first person that made me feel butterflies and get goosebumps everytime.
You are the first person that could be in a room full of people, and I could still only see you.
You are the first guy I ever fell in love with.
My first kiss, my first boyfriend, my first everything.

Then I look down, asked myself "how is it possible not to love you the same way anymore?"

You are a selfish sad soul, how could you take my kind heart and turn it ice cold?
How could you take a happy girl and turn her into a shell? with depression written all across her face, body, eyes, fingers, and hair.

It's all over me.
But i got rid of you, and I finally get rid of YOUR DAMAGES.
For the past six years, you made me feel like I was never good enough no matter how hard I tried.
You made me feel like waiting for you was the best option.

But inspite of all, back then, I feel I will love you for forever.
Yes, back then.. Madly, deeply.
No matter how much you could’ve hurt me, I will love you unconditionally, back then.

Then I look at you, again.
You, turning your back at me.
I shouted, "are you okay now?"
You look back, "Yeah, just be happy"
Then for the last time, I saw you smile.

I shouted your name again, my heart suddenly aches, maybe it's all because of the memories and time we spent together that I always regret.
But this time you never look back no matter how many times I shouted your name.

Then, and only then I realized that maybe you really let me go.
And now that I also no longer wait for you,
A smile spread across my face as a tear of happiness slides down my cheek.
I guess this is good bye.
I guess you finally did let me go.

My heart heal.