I CANNOT DO IT ALL! And that's okay....

I hope I never, ever, EVER give anyone the impression that I can "do it all" and that my life is always great, because I can't think of anything more discouraging to the average mom than reading endless tales of perfect competency and poise from their fellow moms.

Now I have a generally optimistic outlook on life and I prefer to keep my writings upbeat and encouraging for other people. But once in awhile you have those "dang it!" days. Or weeks. And it helps to make fun of yourself sometimes. For instance, my living room looks like this right now...it's not that bad, I know, but it was a "dang it" moment...

The kids have been informed that they will clean all this fluff up themselves, but they're having a glorious time anyway

Indicative of my mental state is the fact that I finished washing dishes, walked around the corner and saw this, and thought "Dang it!! No, screw it, as long as they're playing nicely, I don't care"

Today being Easter, my thoughts are running along the lines of gratitude to my Lord and Saviour for His sacrifice on the cross and rising again. But am I doing a good job of that? Not entirely....I had to ungratefully rant first.

My sister said she shouldn't laugh but...apparently she laughed

I'm trying to figure out when "sunrise services" became A Thing. Either none of the churches I attended while growing up scheduled them, or my parents were also reprobates who skipped them in favor of assembling our Easter baskets and letting us eat cinnamon rolls in our pajamas before doing an egg hunt in the yard. Or maybe it started out as a regional thing, and has spread? Sunrise services make total sense when you live in a warm climate where you can actually watch the sun rise. The Husband and I attended one on the beach when we lived in Jacksonville, and it was an amazing, spiritual experience to be singing worship songs as the sun came up over the ocean. Sitting in a church where you can't see out the windows while wishing you had a Camelbak full of coffee, and everyone is singing "All - - - - le - lu - ia" in the most bleary fashion possible, doesn't quite convey the same effect, though I guess it does let you recreate the experience of rising from the tomb afterward. Plus we were the only family with kids who showed up, so I'm rebelling next year. But as you can see from the state of my living room, my kiddos don't care that they didn't have the kind of Easter morning I fondly and nostalgically remember from my youth, so it really doesn't matter this year :)

I was going to make @energyaddict22's smoked pulled pork recipe for Easter dinner, complete with homemade rolls and coleslaw, because Kroger had the pork shoulder on sale. But after getting home from church I sat like a slug and drank a third cup of coffee instead of prepping the pork. Dinner might just be grilled cheese and tomato soup instead, lol.

I should quit complaining, I know. On Easter of all days! But first! I think a "dang it" moment every mom can relate to, is rounding up laundry, sorting it, getting halfway through the second load and thinking "wow, I'll be able to check this chore off quickly!", and then discovering that you got distracted and completely forgot the kids' laundry basket in the roundup.

Confession: I literally yelled "DANG IT!!" when I found this upstairs.

You also know that you're at Scatterbrained Level 10 when you start writing totally routine things like "Dishes" and "Chickens" on your rapidly growing To Do List, just so you can have something easy to check off and feel good about.

Oh yeah, that's my journal behind the To Do list. Note that I fell behind on that back on the 22nd.

I have a VERY bad habit of getting inspired to take on more things than I can physically accomplish. There are superpeople on Steemit who make their own bath and cleaning products, and I bow down to them as superior beings with far superior time management skills than I have, because while I have the desire and the ingredients, I have yet to find the time to make any. I guess I could get off the computer right now and make something, but then I'd never be on Steemit anymore, and what fun would that be?

So, I do believe that I've hit a wall when it comes to Lovingly Homemade Goodness, and am going to be content with food items for the time being while buying at-least-less-than-totally-toxic other products. I can't keep staying up half the night on Steemit either, so I'm teetering on the brink of closing up shop on sewing as my main hobby and concentrating on writing and editing since that's what I want to do as my major this fall anyway. I'm also contemplating doing something shocking, and hiring someone to clean my house--not on a regular basis, but to just press the Reset button for me so I can go back to maintenance mode instead of being constantly behind.

I can't do all the things I want to do, and that's okay. I'm a fallible human being who gets cross (and even irreverent) sometimes, and that's okay too. Like I said at the beginning, I hope I never project the image that I have it all together, because I so do not have it all together; and if this makes another mom out there feel better about herself, great! I go through periods where I map out a good schedule, get into a good routine, and manage everything smoothly; but inevitably something derails the train, and my life descends into utter chaos before I shake myself free from the wreckage and eventually get all the pieces back on the track. Such is my life and I can either laugh about it or despair about it while I work on improving my time management...so I'll just yell "dang it!" and then shake my head at myself and laugh before starting up the train again.

Happy Easter everyone!! I'm off to drink more coffee, dig the plastic eggs out of the attic so I can fill them with candy and hide them (because by hook or by crook we will have an egg hunt), and look up @warpedweaver's recipe for homemade tomato soup. Time to be flexible, refocus, and turn this into a great day :)