Wow.... i was literally in pain on the couch justRecorder on. I love you @snook thank you. It is hard. It feels like its getting harder. I was just about to say i give up.after what happened today with steempeak. But its you guys that im here for. The last time I said I give up you said "don't you dare". I was so close to saying it today. So i was half asleep head cocked back in pain, thinking about when you said dont you dare a while back. Lolol. And you sent the link. I was like ok. Then i heard my name and said oh no let me press record. (because I hadnt read the post, when you sent i listened right away) so i put on my screen record on thinking it was something funny but it was the sweetest thing ever. I really needed this today because people have a way of Of making you feel stupid without explanation. I don't care about making me feel so stupid but please help me understand so I can no longer be stupid. So I really felt like the defeated. It's not easy to hold up this body and breathe I've passed out already twice this week. When you're trying so hard to hold the body together can barely hold your mind together so when you make a mistake you wish that people would just be a bit nicer by helping you understand things rather than.... you know, at this point its irrelevant. But know the only reason I didnt go back to power down mode and give up was because of your Little voice and like the freaking warlock you are, poof sent a link. Lolololol.