The Diary Game: A Day Filled With Mix Feelings [25/07/2024]

Good day everyone and welcome to today's diary session with your favourite steemian @megareigns, let's just say it's not easy to keep pushing especially when you have little or no help from anyone, it hurts really bad but then I am always encouraged by the affirmative words of faith that says "all will be well" so do I want you to be encouraged as well. Please let's not waste out time, let me go straight to today's business.

I woke up very early, I mean very very early at about 3:15am, I have been a little bit down, I mean I have come to this point I just feel things are not just going my way and I feel stucked, the whole thing kept playing on my head and I nearly went nut, I just bursted out crying myself and my junior brother was there, he understands why, I mean with all the struggles and things are just the way it was before now.

I cleared my eyes and took my phone to the promotion there as I never felt like doing it on my laptop, I got to my bed and stood there not knowing I have been captured by my brother, everything seemed a little bit of the wheel for me and right now it seems this is the end of the road for me.

When I finished with the promotion, I just took my bath and brushed my mouth while just lying on my bed, I was just thinking when the sun will shine again for me, i was lost in my thoughts to the point that my junior brother was talking to me and I never really paid attention to him.

When I woke up that afternoon, I felt a bit relieved and I took a walk round the compound, came back to my room and took my phone then made my first post on Steemit and then voted for others and also made my valuable comment before stepping outside to go stay cos I realized depression was also setting in.

Staying outside, I was distracted away from my thoughts for a while, atleast I began to feel okay right inside of me so I went back inside and had my lunch, this was already 3pm getting to 4pm, I never ate since morning and when I began to get control of my mind, I realised I began to be hungry.

When I finished eating, I put a call across to my friend if he was around, he told me he wasn't, I remembered he told me last Monday he will be travelling outside the state for an event and might not come back this week, so I just had to stay with my little brother.

By 8pm, I had my bath and took my phone again to see if I could make my second post for the day on Steemit, I just couldn't, the while thing was just messing my mind up and I just had to drop my phone, since we had light, i put on my TV and began to see a movie on while lying down on my bed.

I couldn't wait till the ending of the movie when I switched off my phone and took put off the TV then said my night prayer and off I went to bed, this came to an end of my day. Till my next diary guys, take care of yourselves and stay safe out there, keep pushing in this trying times because "tough times don't last but tough people do".