Creative Writing Contest Vol. 14 My Entry | Education: How prepared are you for the 2021/2022 Back to School Year/New Chapter in My Life?

I was actually "Grad-waiting" and the pandemic delayed it but instead of being depressed about it.There is actually a sense of relief for me, not that I like the fact that a lot of people died and businesses filed bankruptcy here and there.But those things are beyond what I can control.I need to focus on the things that I myself can control.

I wanted to say that I've been readying myself even before the Pandemic happened.The chaos within me happened first before the Pandemic. And believe me it is a long and hard journey.I need to take it alone, on my own.At first I was having trouble with my cases, handling patients and also trying to find patients for my cases.Aside from this is the reality that is slowly grappling within me, Im not yet ready for boards, I'm not yet ready to graduate, I'm not yet ready face the world. All of it is slowly dropping in my lap taking its time until the culmination happens and like what I've been anticipating, it bursts out.

I was not able to complete my requirements and i was triggered by the chief of clinic.He thought that I was rushing to graduate and all, that's why I cried but the reality is I just needed to cry that time nothing more nothing less.So that was the time that I started going out, although I know in myself that I cried because I needed to.I still contemplated about it.I asked myself again, if what is the reason why I'm doing what I'm doing and that is not simply to graduate.I don't want to just graduate, i wanted to be the legit one and to be ready to whatever it is that might happen to me in the future(I dont if its a premonition on what is about to happen but yeah) .And its not gonna come to me just because I like but i need to work on it.It was a confirmation of the path that I wanted to take.And so I changed my phase in order to suit that path.

So I slowed down from doing my clinical requirements because I wanted to rebuild my foundation in my career, try to find who I am, what do I want to do in my life and introspection while still doing my clinical requirements in a balanced way.I did that almost everyday, I went to cafes and fast food chains and came home in the morning especially on weekends, holidays and when there is an announcement of no classes because of typhoon.I used every time that I can grab to work on it.And slowly everything comes into place.Its so good to know myself and to reset everything to the very foundation but flexible all at the same time. Uprooted and not easily shaken, might cry, might have encounter mistakes on the way but still gonna stand up and fight.Not afraid of change.

Though there is another hurdle that I need to deal again, my school changed its location to a new and far building.I know that mentally I'll be ready to handle it.But this time the problem is my body.My schedule was off balanced again because of the situation.I was able to arrange it but my body cant handle.I was always sick every now and then

Ans so to be honest before the Pandemic happened I prayed that I needed a break from all the chaos of clinic.I used the time during the lockdown to make sure that I'm okay,I also started to change my diet and start exercising everyday.

So the whole fiasco didn't affected me that much, though Im active on checking on my mom and my dad.I continued the things that I've been doing in the past and but this time I focused on knowing myself more and attended other classes.I also try to study and developed some skills that might be of handy in the future.Actually Im already using some of those skills.While I still continue my review and all the other stuff.

I can honestly say to myself that I am ready for the new chapter in my life that is waiting for me, just like what I did before about my foundation I also started working on that part. No matter what happen I still I know the direction where I ant to go.Though I started readying earlier than the usual haha

My inspiration for self studying and believing in my self and my own method of doing things are all inspired by Educated
by Tara Westover and the other books I've read.I might also share some of it on our community if you want!

but here is the cover of the book and the synopsis of the book for now

Tara Westover was 17 the first time she set foot in a classroom. Born to survivalists in the mountains of Idaho, she prepared for the end of the world by stockpiling home-canned peaches and sleeping with her "head-for-the-hills bag". In the summer she stewed herbs for her mother, a midwife and healer, and in the winter she salvaged in her father's junkyard.

Her father forbade hospitals, so Tara never saw a doctor or nurse. Gashes and concussions, even burns from explosions, were all treated at home with herbalism. The family was so isolated from mainstream society that there was no one to ensure the children received an education and no one to intervene when one of Tara's older brothers became violent.

Then, lacking any formal education, Tara began to educate herself. She taught herself enough mathematics and grammar to be admitted to Brigham Young University, where she studied history, learning for the first time about important world events like the Holocaust and the civil rights movement. Her quest for knowledge transformed her, taking her over oceans and across continents, to Harvard and to Cambridge. Only then would she wonder if she'd traveled too far, if there was still a way home.

Educated is an account of the struggle for self-invention. It is a tale of fierce family loyalty and of the grief that comes with severing the closest of ties. With the acute insight that distinguishes all great writers, Westover has crafted a universal coming-of-age story that gets to the heart of what an education is and what it offers: the perspective to see one's life through new eyes and the will to change it.
https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/35133922-educated
Check the book, it is worth it!

Thats all, I hope you liked it!