Finding Love

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I have a heart that yearns for peace. I don’t know where to get it. the peace it seeks might not be from me but an external source. Do I need a partner or I am just overthinking?

Sometimes being single is good. Not because I enjoy it. but it’s the only way I hide in the sheep's skin of fear of falling in love. I have met angels that I wish I could make mine. I ended up fearing away letting them flew like that of harmattan fire. Not that I can’t love, but I can’t seem to know how to express it even though I am an overdose of it.

Love has always been what I learn about. I spent time going through movies to learn more to make me experience. From books to movies and from movies to friends who have experienced a lot from it. I am timid and I know that. The fear I have to even get closer to a lady is the least of the fear I have. The worse of all is me trying to let her know how I feel about her.

Sometimes I wonder if I will be able to get married with this mindset. Love isn’t bad but I feel insecure and embarrassed anytime I want to confess my love to a lady. I don’t know if I will be able to but I hope one day I get the courage to push down the wall between love and me. So that I will be able to make someone mine.

I love her but can’t tell her. Not that I am not willing to die for her but I can’t overcome the gravitational force that is pulling me away from her. Giving me false ideas, she wouldn’t accept me. I hope I get the courage one day to even try and fail than stay this way.
Help me with your ways. I pray to be saved one day. because love is what we all seek. It’s what gives us the purpose of living. Love always leads.

Thanks for passing by!