The rule in life is to help only when you are in good mental and physical condition! Help when you're asked, but don't give help unless it's asked for. It's intentional that airplane safety briefings always tell you to put your own mask on first in a crisis before assisting someone else who might need it! It is certainly very difficult when you want to help those in need, but you must prioritize yourself; otherwise, how can you help them? Your decision is very good. Move forward bravely because life passes quickly, like sand through an hourglass. The mountains are always a good solution, to stay silent, to find yourself, and to get inspired! Think of yourself, and good luck!