Living with autistic is difficult to endure mostly if in a family no one cares but abandoned the patient. In your situation I'm happy because at least you've got family who cares, support and make you feel like a human in the world. I understand it might feel devastated living in medication throughout lifespan and it hurt a lot, thing is your family have gave you a reason to rise and smile. Truly, autistic deserve to be eradicated From the world to allow good people live their life but it's not in our hand to do so, in short time God Will provide a way by establishing his kingdom here in earth , live will be comfortable and autistic will be no more, how do you feel about this?

Stay safe🫂 and keep on medicating.