Thank you for your answer but I am not in a lot of pain. I think you did not read what I wrote or is it hard for you to understand that there are people who do not care because they do not miss anything? My father is not dead.
Like I wrote: It is impossible to miss what you never had.

Your loss is a real one since you knew him. I am sorry to hear you miss him that much. It feels as if the wrong father died.

Mom will be happy if I tell her about paradise under her feet. I thsnk you on her behalf as well for your kind words and sharing your feelings.
I wish you a good day.