Ohhh, so sad. It hurts when we have no idea about the the thing we want to engage andthe feelings is always difficult and heart breaking. I'm happy that you started to overcome those obstacles day by day through reading people post. You're happy because you discovered the steemit platform and you're learning very himblely, the happiness you seek for will surely come when your consistent and hardworking in this platform but before then, be happy with what you've achieved because it worth happiness. I enjoy reading your post and I wish you all the best of luck.🤗