In the part where you talk about traumas, I will tell you that it is very, very difficult to forget the cause of these, it is something that marks us forever, some move on, but others perish and even prefer to die, it is a matter that those of us who have them can understand.
A hug
I agree, it is always hard to let go but it pays to let it go in the end because we shouldn't let life pass us by while holding on to past hurts.