The day I will never forget for the rest of my life was exactly 9 months ago. Namely, it was May 28th.

Why?

I am a person who is not ashamed to talk about my problems. On the contrary, I believe that anyone who reads my posts can learn a lot. And I hope so too, writing posts here and always happy to help. I think each of my posts has at least a grain of knowledge. I've been through a lot in my life and writing about what happened is an amazing opportunity for me to open up to the world and other people.

I will write about my alcoholism. I am an alcoholic and I am not ashamed of it. People with alcohol problems should not be called alcoholics. But I'll talk about this a little later. I think my problem started with my father and the environment I was in and still is.

I have ADULT CHILDREN of ALCOHOLICS syndrome. My father has been drinking alcohol for as long as I can remember. As a child, I watched it grow more and more. Now I'm 30, almost 31, and my dad still drinks. He has never admitted to being an alcoholic and will probably never admit it. He doesn't even seem to realize it. He should go to a specialist, but this is his life.

I never wanted to drink alcohol, I never liked alcohol. I have always lived in the countryside, where the only entertainment was unfortunately drinking alcohol. So from the age of 15, I fell into" Bad Company " and unfortunately began to consume alcohol. It's only gotten worse and worse since then. I've been drinking for a long time. I drank until I was almost 30. Sometimes more, sometimes less, but the "more" prevailed.

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Then I met my wife and we had a baby, but that didn't stop me from drinking. One day my wife couldn't stand it anymore, and she wanted me to go to a doctor.

I said no. I decided to take control of my problem. Unfortunately, that didn't happen. The next week I drank so much alcohol that my hangover lasted about 4 days. I knew then that I couldn't do it on my own. I realized I needed an alcohol patch. I made an appointment and the doctor sewed alcohol pills into my body.

At first, it was scary, I didn't know what to do with myself. Meditation and sports helped. I had to learn to live without alcohol. Only after 4 months did my body completely got used to drinking alcohol. I had no idea it was taking so long.

Unfortunately, after 6 months, when the pills stopped working, I began to slowly reach for the drink again. First, it started with 1 beer, then after a few weeks it ended with more.

I got drunk again but less often. I realized I was falling into the same trap as before. Drinking alcohol changed my mind a bit. This Naked Mind: Control Alcohol by Annie Grace

The Audiobook is great and I have a second book to read. Allen Carr's "Easyway to Control Alcohol".

So, for the rest of my life, I will remember this date, May 28, 2022, because then I realized that alcohol is not as good as people say it is, but only poison, and I sincerely advise it to everyone. I hope I stay sober the whole time. Fingers crossed for me!