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My Most Unforgettable Heartaches
Good evening everyone. With the given context today, I would say that no words beyond compare could equal the agonizing circumstances I've gone through, with hope in the innermost chamber of my heart and mind that it's only a dream but no, it's not. It's reality.
Haunted
Things in the past kept haunting me. What have I done in my previous life that I should suffer all these miseries? All I wanted was to lead a happy life filled with love and harmony in our midst. But then life is so unfair.
The nest that we've painstakingly built was shattered into pieces and blown by the tempest wind. Why do people rejoice on the downfall of others? It's not right in any sense of word! We need their moral support and understanding. As parents, we were there for her, to comfort her despite the trust she had forsaken because of love.
Death knocked on our door
She was only 16, a minor and couldn't marry the guy yet. They have to wait until the right time comes. Perhaps it was too much for her, she was too young to fight, took her own life, leaving behind her 8-month old baby. It was heartbreaking!
She was the product of our love for each other...my beautiful daughter slept forever despite the cry of her son while looking down at the mirror of the coffin and uttering: " mama, dede..." All of the onlookers were silently crying right at that moment, no words were spoken. I couldn't bear the sight of it then I collapsed.
I have to be strong for my kids. They were still too young without a mother and their dad was far away most of the time, and the baby she left behind. Honestly, I looked above the clouds. I was looking for someone to comfort me at this tragic moment. I felt it was too much! We recently transferred to a boarding house nearby which is only a walking distance from our home wherein the second floor was occupied by my sister in-law. She was the most envious person you can imagine with sharp tongue compared to a barbarian. There was a clash between us so I decided to leave our home to find peace without the knowledge of my husband. It was the same scene whenever he goes onboard his ship. But I stood firm on my ground.
It made me stronger
My daughter's death made me stronger and my son next to her who was only in highschool during that time had learned to fight back especially when their dad was away.
The Divorce
Then they succeeded in breaking our home. They've managed to convince my hubby to this "commercial set-up" at the expense of our marriage, with the condition to file a divorce after two years and petition his family afterwards (parang MKK lang).
It was his last ship on board. He finished contract but did not went home to the Philippines. His sisters picked him up in Miami and stayed with them for 7 months. Their lawyer sent me the divorce papers. I had no choice or else he will be charged for over staying. He got married but the plan to petition his kids were not materialized because his wife had withrawn all her assets in the back making her not qualified to file such because she was considered below the poverty line. She was clever .
He would call me whenever there's a chance and he would cry and me crying on the other end also. He needed to work to send his support to us. We had three nursing students by then. He worked in various carehomes and didn't live with the woman he married who was arranged by his sisters so the embassy went looking for him. Given the choice, I guess It would have been better if he had stood as planned because he became the willing victim of a wanton woman who would do everything online for money. Maybe it was his outburst for all his frustrations but it was a wrong move. She made our lives miserable which I don't need to reveal. It was good enough that my girls already graduated in nursing. We held on to each other.
The Comeback
After 12 long years, he returned to us a very sick man, with all the complications due to diabetes, Ezchemia, hypertension and kidney deficiency. Yet, he refused to stop smoking. He died after 7 months due to cardiac arrest while talking to his girlfriend. My eldest son followed after 5 months due to cardiac arrest too. The worst scenario was that they didn't want my son to be buried in the family mausoleum! Well, he fought for us during the death of their father. We were outcast. The people's sympathy was all in our side. We managed to find a space in the overcrowded cemetery at the cornermost part in the cemetery yet many went to sympathize with us. My friends, our struggle is real. I seems that I've already created a mini ebook. If you were in my place, which unforgettable Heartaches would you prefer?
It took me some time before I finally finished reading everything. I could not say anything, I also felt the pain, the hardships you've been through hindi basta2 but you never blame God for allowing those things to happen.
I wish with those experiences in the past, you are now living a happy life with the rest of your kids, perhaps with the abundance of everything, something like you don't need to work anymore for you to earn money because someone has taken care of that.
I don't want to hear about heartaches anymore, I hope the succeeding question of @steemitphcurator will be something about happiness and joy. Masakit sa dibdib magbasa nga ganito.
Yes bro, grabe na iyak na rin ako ehh..sa next ibahin ko na...huhuhu...
Ganun daw talaga Sir Long. Sometimes we don't get the diamond we hope for in life because there is even more brilliance than the diamond that God provides for us.
I am still blessed to have wonderful kids who were there for me though things were no longer the same. We used to have a happy family. In fact, they looked up to us as a model family, with intelligent kids and comfortable life. But then our lives changed tragically.
Ang sabi nga ng isang nag-comment, akala nya it's a fiction. Ang sabi ko nga how I wish it was. Naubos din ata luha ko pagkatapos but it was a relief to have poured down the grief in my heart through this community.
Too much for a heartache I can't choose even one. Grabeh 😔
Yes dear. I've shared most of it to you since nakikilala kits online pero Ang sakit pa ring gunitain Ang nakaraan.
You survive all this, you are a stromh woman Sis @sarimanok.
I've managed sis for my kids. BTW, binasa mo ba lahat, ang haba kasi.
After reading the entire story, I could onl say that there are many tragic things that could happen to our livds, keep the hope maam, God sees your tears, He kept you alive all these years for a.reason. your testimony shows us how strong of a.woman you are.
Thanks for the encouraging words. Yes, sila Ang nagpatatag sa akin na mabuhay pa sa mundong ibabaw.
You have been through so much. I am in no words. You are strong woman. I wonder how you do that. I wouldn't say you win it all but all that happened in your life I think the most tragic is when you were helpless losing a teenage Mom kid. That is so much to bear. I can see why you fainted and all the hurts.
Yes, the sight of her baby asking for her milk was unbearable. Actually, we still sent the two (father of her child) in college for their future. They were on the 2nd sem of enrollment when the registrar humiliated her by telling her that they're not allowed to enroll because live-in couples were not allowed to enroll bcos it's a catholic school. And mind you, she said that right on her face with the other enrollees around!
There is always reason why people come up with horrific decisions. Being a teenage Mom, and catching up for life take a toll in her mind so hard that words and humiliation can trigger. We really don't know the heart of each one. She gave up but here you are keep on going for her. I hope you find peace on that area. I will pray that that kid found its peace.
You are a very strong woman sis despite everything that life has thrown you challenges and painful trials. Life must go on no matter what! God is good we just have to hold on to Him and keep the faith.
Kung minsan sis, gusto ko rin tanungin ang Diyos kung hinayaan nyang mangyari ito sa buhay namin samantalang yong mga pasaway ay parang wala lang.
Lahat daw sis nakaguhit na sa palad natin hinuhulma pa lang tayo. Others say, may mga ancestors daw tayo na may nagawang mali sa buhay nila at ang next generation ang nagsa-suffer. Well, just hold on and pray more.
Grabe naman po, na iyak na po ako dito pa lang. Grabe parang tinusok puso ko lalo na noong nawala po yong anak mo pero, ang lakas mo po...nakayanan mo ang lahat kahit na iniwan ka nang iba mong minamahal. Salamat po ate sa pag share.
Kinaya ko lahat kasi yon ang dapat lalo na sa mga apo ko. Never in my wildest dream na ninais ko ang mga pangyayaring Ito. Ang hangad ko lang ngayon ay wag daanan ng mga anak at apo ko ang nangyari sa buhay ko, o maulit muli.
Congratulatios dahil Ikaw ang isa sa "BEST COMMENT OF THE DAY" (05-26-2021). Salamat sa pagsali.