"The Diary Game Season 3 (11/08/21) | The Battle She's Fighting" @eivor22

People sometimes ask me if who my bestfriend is. Whenever they ask me that, my respond is always " my siblings". I have 5, by the way :) I don't know why I don't have a friend who I treat as a best friend. I trust all of them of course. However, I still feel I can't share all the things that have happened to me, or my deepest secrets to them. It's still different when I do share it to my siblings, the feeling of relief is different. One of my closest siblings is our second, I share to her almost everything , or I should totally everything.

She is four years younger than me, but I feel like her maturity is just the same as mine :) We argue, yes, sometimes; that can't be avoided, but we understand each other in so many ways. I would also say she is one of the most very diligent people I know.

She may look strong and cheerful, but she's hiding some pain. A pain that you can't imagine she has.

The morning was peaceful. We were getting ready to thrive for the day. All of a sudden, my sister was complaining about a pain; back pain. She was palpitating and had difficulty breathing at the same time. She looked so pale, as white as snow. I was blank, and didn't know what to do, but I should not show her what I felt for she would be scared too. I asked her what else she was feeling, and she responded in a whisper way that she didn't understand her feeling. Thinking the situation may get worse, I immediately called an ambulance to rush her to the hospital.

She was crying inside the ambulance, I didn't bother asking her any questions and just rub her feet and arms, perhaps that may make her a little bit better. The ambulance staff tried to get her blood pressure but they couldn't find her pulse at that time. I was scared for her, but I needed to be strong.

Upon arriving at the hospital, she stopped crying. I kept on telling her just to think of good things, those might help her feel better. Maybe she did think of good things, she looked a bit relaxed a few moments later.

To make the long story short, my sister was diagnosed with RHD ( Rheumatic Heart Disease) last 2017. She needs to consistently take some medicines for her heart. She will need an operation in the future which is totally scary. Also, this condition makes her not do all the things she wants to do. She actually wants adventure, however, she is not advised to do such. She easily gets tired, and gasps for air whenever she does things using her force. She can't be very sad, very happy and very stress too, these may affect her heart condition.

The symptoms she has now is due to her RHD.

Despite all the don'ts that her condition has, she still has big hope that everything will be alright. So am I.

As of the moment, she is admitted in the hospital , for she's still under observation. The only thing I can do now is to be beside her no matter what. We are still waiting for some laboratory results. We are praying that everything will just be fine.

This experience has taught me to be strong to make someone strong too. You can influence people positively by telling them " In God's will, everything will be alright".

This is a very saddening day for me and my family. I am praying the upcoming days will be better.

@doremi98 @glenicelou27 @carlisle0914