It's interesting to know amidst the problems you're facing that tends to be more stressful, you try your best to prioritise self-care. Heartbreaks from seeing a result or from the one you mentioned, can be very depressing and adds to one mental health leading to anxieties in life and too much thoughts on a daily basis. I know this may be very painful to you but try keeping up with it. It will become a memory as this life continues. I love the way you wrote this post but sometimes include conclusion to it to summarise what you've said.