I think I understand what you are writing. I worked hard all my life. I'm not complaining about what I got. I enjoyed while I worked and I feel better because today the economy is devastated in my country.
I can only think that I will go out in the near future to visit other countries, God willing.
I hope you can travel and visit the countries you like. I'm not sure if that will ever happen but you never know.
That's how it is, you never know, but I must not stop dreaming because it can happen.