Thanks :) first of all, don't compare yourself to me (or others). Life is not a sprint run, everyone lives in his own steps ;)

I also couldn't imagine myself employed. It was just pure random that i landed in that job and i liked it, so i stayed^^ what's also to say (i saw that words somewhere online and they just fit 100%): I didn't plan my future, because i didn't plan to have a future. But here i am now, awkwardly^^