It's a long journey to Freeland, one with sacrifices, suffering and counting on one person only. That person is your dear self.
It can be tough, it will be lonely but while you stumble and get back on your feet you know this is the road you have to take to generate a better life for you in the first place. If you don't feel good, if you are sick, feel unmotivated or are losing yourself, the only way up is by fighting and finding yourself back. If you don't feel good you can't be with someone else.
Ignoring in the hope to forget is an illusion. Don't, at least not on long term. Face it and give it a place. What will be will be.
What you can do to fight the chaos is list it down
Write till your head is empty. It's fine if what is written is chaotic if you ever decide to write stories it can be your notes.
Once there's nothing to write about, if your head is empty, it's time to go to bed. Let your head rest and sleep. Tomorrow is another day, tomorrow is plenty of time to decide.
Take it easy, step by step focus on how to survive the next minutes the same way as walking through the jungle. Focus on each thing you do and shut down automatism.
There's no need to hurry or force yourself pain needs time to be accepted and to heal. Pain, like emotions, is the energy of a writer so for sure you can write about it.
All I can say for now is that I've been there. It's great to be strong but there's no need to be a superhero and my advice is not to be but grieve, be angry, frustrated and whatever you have to let out.
You can write it down, burn it and try to hang in till the moment arrives you can step outside and continue with your life.
You know which road you have to take for now I say give yourself a break and focus on yourself and X.
You know you can e-mail me [email protected]
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I know it is only hard at the beginning and eventually, it will be a routine as well. It was not a complain but something "a chaotic mind" I need sometimes to write it down, and today I write it in the form of a short chaotic post with a photo just to replace an error post. Only true friends like you will understand what it is and will write a reply.
Thank you for the email. I believe that I have saved it somewhere but I forgot where I saved it. Btw, have you come back home?
I saved your email address and I will write you with my personal email address later on, Thank you very much @wakeupkitty. have a great day
It doesn't matter if chaotic. This is the great thing of a freewrite and why it relaxes me. If it comes to it I don't care if be read but at times people do and understand. The positive side is we know therevare more like us. Once in a while they show and let us know they are around.
At first it's hard, and later it will be again but knowing we survived helps to reach the top again.
Since the past years I have more than one home. I haven't figured out yet where home is. Can be it's wherever I lay my head? If I don't feel good I leave.
Stay safe and do three (little) things to pamper yourself to make yourself feel good. A cup of coffee counts!
You can write whenever you feel to it, time, frequency doesn't count but friendship does.
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It is good to have friends like you because now I feel more confident and courageous to write a kinda functional story next time...and enjoy the real writing time with the universe just like before.
Have a good day for you
You can be confident because you are a good writer. You have humour and know how to express feelings and set people on the wrong food. So please, keep writing because it's more than worth reading you.
It's good to write something different and let your fantasy and dreams, even crazy, creative ideas live in what you write.
For sure you are a good story teller.
Look how your children respond if you joke with them. Watch, observe. All feelings, emotions, reactions you can use to add life to a story or your bike.
A great day to you!
Actually at the beginning of "the diary game" I don't like to write a normal way, but always put some short makeup story inside, but it was about participating in the initiation, but later...I stacked and wrote more flat diary games only to tell that I am busy in real life
Now, it seems I should explore writing more and more, I am preparing to write fiction and I am preparing the plot and character. it is about adventure because I like it most and know details about things, I used to write poems some time ago in Bahasa.
It is always good to have a niche and if you weave facts in fiction it's easy to believe.
Poetry is art on itself. I myself started with writing it myself here with @ freewritehouse. I liked writing it, puzzling with words more than reading others but today that changed.
Don't give up on what is part of you, your soul it will break you on the long run. If you write once a week or once a month it's a good start. Handwritten in a box makes a great picture of who you are.
A happy Saturday to you. I keep an eye on your profile.
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