Indeed you have written well and I must say that I enjoyed reading through your post.

Honestly, at 48 years old, I still hesitate to make decisions, I have always been very analytical, elegant critic and at this time of my life I am not for games, I am not for wasting time or taking .

Waooh I was so impressed to know that you are still eager to make decisions despite your age. However, age doesn't stop us from making decisions so always go on with your decision at all time.

My biggest fair is to die and not have achieved all my goals.

You will surely achived all your goal just keep on trusting on God. Best of luck to you.