I couldn't help but laugh out loud while reading through your amazing post dear. But I want to correct one impression, marriage is not for children, it's for mature minds, so you have to grow up first, and secondly is not always a bed of roses 🌹 but both you and your partner have to work hard for it. For now, I'll advise you to work on yourself and your personality and cultivate those beautiful qualities you expect your partner to have. I wish you success when the time is right for you!