Emotions ( Poem ) || I :m Okay

I 'm Okay
You know, there's this thing and it happens quite often

This thing where we'll be asked how we are and our automatic response is

I'm Okay

Now sometimes it's true but other times that I'm okay

Is covering up the fact that I've had restless nights

Breaking moments,
Worries on top of worries and I hate to say it even suicide througts

But to you,to a stranger ,a teacher ,a classmate a friend

Even my mother
I'll say I'm Okay
I don't want to be put into this box , into this label

We're I'm know as that sad and depressed person no one wants to be around

I'll fake a smile if I have to

Laugh, be as friendly as possible ,and act like I know what the hell I'm doing

Maybe if I pretend on those really bad days
I'll start to feel like I'm actually okay

You know, fake it until it feels real
It sounds crazy , silly , but we all do it sometimes

I just happen to do it more often than others
Muster up some energy from who knows where and use it in order to function

To keep a conversation going
To feel like I'm not out of place

I feel my heart beating , my chest moving ,and I know that I'm alive

And yet I sigh

Because I feel like I'm not meeting this quota that I need to fulfill

I meet your eyes and give a Friendly wave
While inside I feel a horrible weight crushing me down

Shaky hands and sporadic thoughts that remind me of all the things I fear,

I Question,
I wonder
I try to avoid
Buy hey, I'm okay

The sun has come up and has given me others day

So I'll play

I'll play the part when it's not really there
Look joyful, full of life Look like someone that has the word in their Hands

I'm okay

Is what I'll say
So no one will see the hurricane
That is slowly coming my way

Thank you 💞.

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