When was the first, and the last time, you watched porn?

About twenty years ago a friend of mine knocked at my door, and said, come over to my place I have something that you'd like to see... I was almost getting to puberty and wasn't even thinking that that would involve a TV and a VHS, and I was rather expecting some new soccer ball or some roller blades, or a fucking bike but, nope... It was the first porn movie that I watched in my entire life that was expecting for me... and a beer. We were twelve now.

His parents were to work, he even bought beer as I wrote, and we watched almost one hour of porn, not one second skipped. The era of fantasizing and imagination, regarding sex, had come to an end, and it was now crystal clear what was all about, how she does that, how he does it, and what I would do to all of the ladies from that porn movie. I left there after one hour a bit drunk, with my cheeks red from all that dopamine flooding through my blood and feeling horny as fuck, and wearing a boner that could get through walls, and kind of knowing where I'd end once I get home.

I don't remember the name of the movie but, I do remember one scene from it, and it involved a blonde and a chair. What I remember is that it has created a precedent and once I had my own PC, quite many such videos have rolled on that computer's 15" screen, and I'm not ashamed to admit that. Back in high school we even used to watch them in our group of friends, boys and girls, so we could get a bit of inspiration. Quite some nice times... I know that some say they have become addicted to such content, and there's plenty of research out there regarding potential side effects of watching porn, mixed with excessive masturbation in most cases, one of them being porn induced erectile dysfunction.

Didn't got that far, and my porn consumption was relatively cool, not involving violent types of porn consumption, sadism and so on, although I wouldn't gave up on it even when being in some sort of a long or short relationship. I always felt like it's normal, every body does it, and somehow it keeps you updated to trends... until 30 days ago, when I decided to quit watching porn. I read a few articles on nofap about the so called harmful effects of porn, I was resonating with some, and one day I really felt like it's odd watching two people(a man and a woman) having sex through a screen, and I said I should give it a try... and leave them alone.

That's when I watched my last porn video and don't ask me which one it was, because I really don't remember it. Yes, the first one still has a few images printed on my brain but the last one, probably being one in an ocean of others, was quite irrelevant for my brain to memorize it. One month of not watching porn really leaves room for some other activities, because you should know, if you don't watch it, that when you enter the vortex of it, you hardly get out in a few minutes and sometimes day turns into night. It's probably that high amount of dopamine that keeps you craving for more. Now I don't crave for any, and really don't feel like opening a tab for some sex clips, although I could, if I would. I want to test this nofap thing and see if it's really how those guys describe it.

What I noticed by now is that, probably having to do with the dopamine levels getting re balanced, that I am no longer finding myself in that laziness state as I used when into almost daily porn, or at least every two-three days, and feel like getting out and do more instead of getting behind a screen. I can't actually do that too often because of this shitty lock down and that almost everyone is inside. I can also say that somehow, and hopefully I'm not taking the placebo pill, I feel like engaging more in real life, and trying to create more on this blog, and interact more with people. So, my first time I watched porn was almost twenty years ago, and my last one was just thirty days ago, and an ocean of pixels sets them apart.

What abut you, would you share this type of personal info about you on Steem? When was the first and the last time you opened that tab?

Thanks for attention,
Adrian