And about excitement -I know that for a part it's personality. Some people have a consistent character -like the one that is praised by our society because it's productive, keeps in step with it's goals etc. I learned that my strength is that I can be spontaneous, give 100% on an idea I just had and that planning doesn't come naturally. Of course I can learn some of those things, like you say, but so hope you are not just frustrated with yourself. Your "weaknesses" are also strengths that you can also use, like your exitement. 👍🏻🙌🏻