Monday Diary Check in

Hi guys, today started off like every other day;normal. Except that it wasn't normal at all. You see, I have spent exactly six hours on my phone trying to figure out the best ways to get a capital for my business legally and it has been a lost course. The internet is pregnant with scam sites and the few genuine ones require the very capital I seek, ironical...
Growing up makes everything difficult. My life feels like a dream and not the good kind. Or perhaps we can call it a mirror reflecting the exact opposite of what I had envisioned my life to be like at 21. I know there's so much I can accomplish, like making coconut oils and every other beauty oils for sale but where's the money to start?
Life is a bitch and it is very scary that lonliness and boredom has made me realise it only too well today. A monday like no other...
There is over a thousand and one ways to earn money off the internet, even this is one of the ways if I'm lucky enough. I wish I could do something but there's very thin line between knowing what to do and actually having the finances to do them. I'm stuck in between.
I have done a lot of thinking today, I have decided to win my life back.
The world is such a lonely and painful place and I have felt that in all shades today.
I urge you to be kind to everyone...life is pretty hard and chocolates can't even fix it.

Bye...later ,maybe.