Hello friend, it has much sentdo what you express and in particular I understand it, I find logic to these approaches and I respect religions but I believe that if we do good or bad acts we will have consequences in this life. It is here although deep inside me I long for that paradise, I like to think of that place full of perennial welfare and thinking about it, my life is beautiful, quiet and full of love, I want that for my children too, for anyone.