A Looser

Everything starts like this and ends like this. I have not seen anyone who has no hope of living. I am dying with each passing moment, but I have seen the end from the beginning, and it happened just as I thought. If there is a natural formula, this is it. Your hands write all the success stories. I am the person who loved you more than my life, but I never knew that one day in my life you will meet me as a stranger!

  
There can be no greater punishment than this. Since you became a stranger to me, I have become a stranger to myself. There is nothing left in me that can give love to anyone.

I found out recently that you used to cry a lot for me! Yes, you made me cry by crying for me. Your crying was even more painful for me. You made me sad by crying for me. But now everything is far behind.

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I wish I could tell you that I was still a loser. But not everything can be told. Now strange feelings are running through my mind. Feelings of sadness, remorse and freezing like ice. I don't want to meet you I have learned that what is stopping me from meeting you is my cowardice, which has separated me from you.

The other strange thing that remains like a wave and overshadows the rest of the emotions, is that you have forgotten me and gone too far away from me. I know you once loved me, but I could not love you in return. I couldn't do anything for you, and that's why I feel inferior to you.

I was tired today. Sleep was forcefully entering the eyes and mind. But after listening to you, she also returned. I don't know what you will think of me.

I fully understand that whoever I am, I am not made to love anyone. I know I don't deserve to be loved by someone who loves me like you. I hope you have erased me from your life like you wipe the tears from your eyes.

I also know that I was a burden on your mind, and now you must be ashamed of me. Maybe it happened for the betterment of your future. I feel free. But perhaps this is another proof of my cowardice and a greater proof of my inferiority. In the life of some people there is nothing but tragedies.

But the good thing about man is that he keeps fighting till the end and never gives up. But some defeats break a person forever and I am one of them. A person who has lost his heart will fail in all wars. But I have no hope left. There is really no fire in me. I am a complete loser.

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