I grew up being poor, so it was either I did this or I died.

This seems to me being a very hard sentence, and possibly an assassination attempt on morality or ethics...

Thus, my answer is:
If I place the good, my will to do good, under the condition: but only as long as I survive with it, then I have still not understood anything about good and evil.

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Please note that I speak of me and that I wrote "I", not "you".