My worries are similar, I also worry that when the surprises stop being surprising, then they just stop happening as well, because their meaning will be taken away and they won't make sense. That's why people say we should enjoy the little things, which is quite difficult nowadays. I have a feeling that I too would only be happy if I found some forgotten money or some unexpected income came out of nowhere. I don't know what else could surprise and delight me right now. Yes, I have other wishes, but they seem even more unrealistic, lol.