What should I do?!

The world seems scary. With little space, limited opportunities, less connections and interactions. Seems the (lock down) restrictions have had an unending trend hike emotionally and mentally on life. "Is this reversible?!" , I often ask myself. As I live freely day by day drowned in thoughts, "will these go away, will I have my life back, will I recover my mentality?" Everything heals with time but "still" thoughts go back and forth, roaming inside every "head" I passby. Is there a soul overcoming this or which overcame it?! I question my "inner man" lest I burden another soul into a trauma!

Am now burdened by even the once normal things; the ticking of my watch which reminds me that "time waits for no man", the rising of the sun as people say relactantly that it comes along with new chances, new opportunities- then I ask, "Where are these chances "Mr." Sun?"?! "Where do you leave those that belong to me whenever you pass by my window as I gaze admiring your beauty?" You all know the reply this "overhyped" man, Mr. Sun, gives me. It is just a waste of time "him" coming by, I wish he could change his route, that I may spend a little more time with other people under darkness. For the times in our lives are too dark to be cast out in plain sight, where do you all get the courage to dress up neatly, showcase your smiles as though you are immortal have no ambitions? Where do you find the courage to stare, day by day, without a worry?

I lay out my anguish to that person, yes. Each and everyone of you. Are you surprised?! Why should you? You pass by me, and smile- what a mockery?! Am I a laughing stock?!

Tell me, what Is the secret to that courage, what is the secret to that success, what is the secret to that hypocrisy that you even may care less to share why you are that happy? Is what I ask for really had to give? Are you an accomplice to "Mr. Sun"?
HELP!