It's as if our society encourages us to stay tuned in to media of some kind to keep our minds from wandering. No value is given to allowing our brains to free-wheel and to determine where our thoughts should go. So many times in my past, some adult would tell me that my mind was wandering or that I was daydreaming, and they were correct, but that didn't mean it was not working.

Just yesterday I was outdoors all day working on gardening chores with my dog nearby and only the sound of birds and a few farm animals providing background sounds. After two hours it was almost as if I were in a totally different place as time slowed down and the ever-present world problems disappeared from my "worry processor" and I existed in the NOW. My hands worked and I had time to be aware of sounds and scents. The sound of a distant, passsing jet plane was a brief irritation. Spending a full day with myself allowed me to experience the day.

I need to work on my underlying guilt and learn that it's okay to exist without constant input from people and artificial, non-contributing things.