It is so poetic and beautiful and bittersweet that although I couldn't and didn't help her, now I know so many resources that can be of benefit to many others! I truly pay that her death was not in vain, and that I may be in service to others in honor of my love for her. It is profound to have such inspiration, motivation, and purpose in my life, especially since the pain was so overwhelming for such a long time that I wanted to die too. This life is a magical mystery!