Hello, nice to meet you. As someone who has suffered with chronic pain for most of my life I can relate to what you are going through. While I can't say what will work for you, I would be happy to share what assisted me in my personal journey for health, balance and well being. First just let me start off by saying that it's amazing how connected everything in this universe really is. Even things you would think have nothing to do with each other. That said I would like to share with you a little about my experience with an alternative healing modality called Biodynamic Craniosacral Therapy. BCST for short, is a form of therapeutic touch for healing trauma. I studied BCST for two years in school, and worked hands on with hundreds of different individuals. I am not a certified practitioner by trade, and in no way is this meant to be medical advice or even recommendation. I believe you if you find something that works for you, you should stick with it, but it's also good to try a little of everything.

So, in nature there is a bio-mechanical mechanism that all living organisms have which for sake of argument we will call "potency". (Other cultures refer to this energy as Chi). The job of this mechanism is to maintain equilibrium within the system, to maintain what we call "health". I'd like you to image a scenario, a very natural one in which a deer is fleeing from a predator. When the deer experiences this event the autonomic nervous system kicks into high gear, and the bio-mechanical mechanism we know as "fight or flight" (it's really fight, flight or freeze) kicks in and the animal will do whatever it can to survive, or in some cases may simply freeze, in order to "check out" mentally before it experiences it's inevitable demise. The point to all of this is, sometimes when animals experience traumatic events such as near death experiences they will go off and find a safe and quiet place and their bodies will begin doing something magical. The body of the animal begins to shake and shake, and it will continue shaking until finally it stops and the animal is able to get up and simply go on it's way again like nothing ever happened. Aside from some minor physical wounds which will heal the animals is as though the event never happened. This "shaking" process is the autonomic nervous system releasing the accumulated trauma from the event. What happens when we experience trauma is that our bodies "store" the trauma inside. In BCST, there is no difference between the physical and the emotional, because the emotional "IS" physical, does that make sense?? The Chinese have some interesting correlations between emotions and the organs too, I mean it's all connected and different expressions of the same thing, getting back to the point...

As human animals we experience trauma in countless ways. In fact just being born can be traumatic for some and impact development in a variety of ways if left unresolved. Humans have the same bio-mechanical mechanism and it's designed to protect us from being hurt, and it's a fantastic and extremely sophisticated and highly intelligent system.. but.. it gets dumb sometimes. As humans we often get "stuck" in the "fight", "flight", or "freeze" modes and our autonomic nervous systems can and will run like that unless the underlying issues are acknowledged, and allowed to resolve. That's the beauty of BCST. The therapist does not do anything except for listen to the system of the client, a good therapist does not apply their intention whatsoever, they simply acknowledge the patient and focus on the health and the well being in their system. As they say in BCST "something happens". The neutral touch of the therapist allows the trauma in the system to begin to resolve, and let me just say this isn't always a pleasant experience. In fact it is very difficult and it should be, it has to be as it will always get worse before it gets better. But that is what is so amazing about the human body, and all bodies for that matter. I truly believe our bodies have the capability and intelligence to heal themselves. They just need to be given the right "space".

I would be happy to continue talking with you Elle, if you would like to continue this discussion. Take good care of yourself. Peace :)