Oh, I'm so sorry, @rok-sivante! I really know what that's like. Three years ago my father died and I remember feeling extreme pain in the bones of my knees that was only soothed with painkillers. I became an addict! Until one day I went to therapy with some friends and I remember that all I did was cry all day. The pain of the loss had sickened my body, but thanks to crying, I healed.Normally we test our body and subject it to limit activities, without realizing that we are human and mortal. Music would be a good therapy, even if it's just listening to it. It always pleases me to hear from you. I hope you get better! A big hug!:)