It is a difficult road to manage between being positive "you can do it! keep trying" and letting reality sink in "it hurts, so take a break."

I hope for you, for me, and for everyone else who is holding on for their investment to pay off that this takes off soon.

Steem has to rise to $6.67 USD for me to be able to pay my mortgage. I will keep praying (and looking for freelance writing opportunities).

I wish you well and I hope that with tribes, and SMT's coming out (eventually) there will more ways to earn off the blockchain and you can keep your $$$ for your surgeries.

Better days my friend.