Dear Diary: Taking A Bath Is A Torturous Activity Now

I am a vain person before and when I take a bath there aren't any crevices in my body that I haven't scrubbed before I leave the bathroom so I spend a lot of time showering. But now I couldn't scrub very well especially my legs and feet because the pain and stiffness in my body wouldn't allow me to do that.

It really is a torturous activity and I am just forced to do it all because I need to use the toilet. It is still painful to take a bath despite that I am under medication and just imagine without some pain reliever and I won't maybe able to even get up from my bed and unto my wheelchair.

I wanted to cry but no tears are coming from eyes, I am just numb enough from all these problems but I am in pain and do not know what to do because I have done already what I can and still I am suffering with the worst misery that I can get. I hope thata somebody out there would pray for me to die so that I can get finally freed from my misery.