Dear Diary: It Is Easy For me To Feel Unwell And Sick

Right now I feel unwell and sick and I feel nauseated already and would like to get hooked for dialysis but my dialysis schedule is still about 36 hours away so I am really feeling wasted already.

I really could not eat normal diet and I just have to eat minuscule amounts for me to stay at least well enough for the next session. Now I don't know if I could eat anymore but will just try and would avoid meat products because I have to avoid its by-products in the body which are the creatinine, nitrogen and ammonium compounds, and other substances that makes me feel sick.

Nausea is the main symptoms of a dirty blood and that is what I am experiencing right now. I feel like vomiting so it really is hard to hold on with this kind of condition because the body is trying to let out what is bad inside the body but of course it cannot until I get dialyzed.

I may have to ask the nurses next time to run the blood pump at a faster pace because lately the clean that I get seems to be inadequate because I could not get to feel well enough especially near my dialysis period. I just wished that I can go for dialysis everyday then nothing like this would happen but it is a very expensive procedure and I can only afford two times a week with a health insurance otherwise I would not afford it at all. It is all just hard to manage, may God help me.