Dear Diary: I Still Feel Weak

While I am enjoying the fruits that I bought the other day it is apparent that I just lost a bigger function of my hands because they had become weaker so I had a hard time peeling the seemingly easy to open skins of Longan and the Lanzones fruits.

I am afraid to lose the function of my hands if this is the result of my back bone vertabrae compressing each of its segments then I am in deep trouble of being paralyzed or much better die as a result.

I really do not want anymore disabilities, I still want to do things even though I am hurting and cannot do what most people does in their lives like having some quality time with the family, visiting relatives and such activities. Heck if I were just able I will take my parents in a Fair and let us ride a Ferris Wheel and eat pop corns.

The last time I tried to have a quality time with my parents was when we eat at the restaurant in the city. It was never preceded because my body and appearance just transformed into an ugly Quasimodo-like creature, then my plans of going out with my family was washed away in the drain.

Although I am weak I am trying to get stronger in my thoughts and mental acuity although I do not have much to offer but what I am thinking and experiences are the things I share. this is my way of making myself sane in spite of the inequities in my body.