Dear Diary: Dialysis Time Again And I Do Not Feel Well

in #health6 years ago

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I Wished That It Is Just All Mental But It's Not

Today I think I will be laying down on my back while I travel to dialysis, it is because I have some pain on my back and ribs and it isn't even comfortable lying down. It is also terrifying to sit down in our vehicle because I can feel every bump on the road as my father had already altered the suspension system as well as the seat cushions and made them hard.

I already took some pain medication and I hope that it would ease up some pain. I thought that I would never use them again but I was wrong. The dialysis will make me feel a bit well but I am not excited because I will not be having my favorite food.

My mouth feels terrible and it seems that as weeks passes by my facial disfigurement just keeps on progressing. I pray that God would help me cure this difficult bone disease. It had made dialysis like a chicken feed. I do not complain about dialysis anymore because it is much easier to handle than having a Leontiasis which in itself will cause me a lot of further complications as well as procuring for it expensive medicines. i

So if not from the help and support of steemit community will not be possible for me to buy my nasty expensive Cinacalcet, a drug that is also giving me a very hard time living because of its appetite-altering, taste-perversing after-effects, a bitter pill to take literally because I have no choice, to chose it or to suffer even further and get more complications, it is sad and disheartening. But the fight still continues.

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If wishes were true, I'd wish one day you'd wake up and be made whole.

May God grant you strength bro

As a big family of course we always support you and always hope your health getting better and better. So i believe your medication is one of your efforts to struggle your life. We all pray and wish god will give you strength to face everything in your life. GBU

Sorry you're going through such pain... Everything will be better soon.

Whenever I feel pain I try to make my mind busy thinking at good things. This will help to shift your attention. Try it out!

What you express at the end is true, the fight is fighting and not discouraging is what will help you to continue in it

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