Dear Diary: Another Health Problem Knocked Unto My Door Today And It Was This Vertigo

I am so bothered by Vertigo. I had it before and it wasn't so pleasant, in fact I like pain than this so debilitating condition. When you are suffering from a vertigo you get a sensation of a spinning head and then as if you will lose consciousness and that is what I am feeling today. I am just stiff on my bed not rolling on my side or I might vomit in dizziness if not poop in my pants because of that.

I suspect that my blood pressure is very high and I do not know if that were the case because I do not have any blood pressure monitor that I can use at this moment to verify that. I may have to wait this one to wear off and I will just sweat it out until it leaves me. There is a medication for this but maybe I won't purchase a medicine if this won't go away.

I am just scared when I get dizzy because it makes me think that if I lose consciousness then that's it. Death is a rest for me but I still have to accomplish things for my loved ones not only for myself. I do have some mountainous medical problems that I have to solve but I also have the task to make the lives of my parents better that is why I am striving to reach my goals thanks to steemit friends here it may get a possibility soon.

I just hope that this vertigo is transient and is just a complication of dialysis. If it was a sign of another impending health problem then it is something that I have to try to manage because no one could help me but myself only. I am just so fortunate enough that I managed to pull it off and I survived this long thanks to my friends whom most I never even me in my life but they are the ones changing my life for the better.

I am also hoping to last until I get to accomplish some of my plans for my parents than I can rest. I cannot do anything anyway in my life like travelling, making a family of my own, or just exploring the world. All I got is the online world and my friends out there , God bless and keep you all.