For All The People With Mental Problems

Okay, this is a little story from my life. I think this story can help a lot of people with mental disorders.

I am 27 years old. At an age of 5, I started showing signs of unacceptable behaviour. At that time, the teachers told my mother that she needed to raise me another way than she did, because I was churlish.

A year after the problems really went bad, we started going to this neurologist. They had just found this new disorder called Attention Decficit Hyperactivity Disorder. At that time, it was called DAMP. Deficits In attention, motor control and perception, later it was called ADHD and ADD.

In my entire life, I have been the black sheep. I don’t fit in anywhere. I am not good at keeping relationships with people, I’m antisocial, I’m hyperactive, I’m anxious.
Many things are wrong with my mental health, and it’s kinda hard to live with.

The doctors haven’t helped me in all these years. No doctor can figure out how to give me the right medicine, to keep me stabilized.
So I started reading myself. I read about psychiatry, neurologi, medicine and basically everything related to mental medical science.

I started playing with different medicine. Maybe I could find the right medicine with research and a little testing on myself? I did my research well and my knowledge about medical science is pretty good right now.

I am diagnosed with ADHD, OCD, Borderline Personality Disorder, Asperger Syndrom and Major Depression

Many different substances didn’t work. First of all, the doctors tried about 25 different medicines on me. Nothing worked, and some of the medicine have damaged me permanently.

Then I tried about 10 substances myself.

Ritalin: Worked for my concentration and motivation problems because of my ADHD, but gave me hell a lot of anxiety.
Straterra: I gave it the time. It should be working properly after 6 weeks, but it didn’t do anything but make me anxious and ill like I had a flu all the time.
Adderall: Absolutely awfull. Anxious as hell. Nervous feeling.
Lamotrigine: Removed my suicidal thoughts, but nothing else.
Lyrica: Removed suicidal thoughts aswell, but nothing else. Made me a bit confused.
Rivotril: Works, but got a big addiction potential and tolerance builds up too fast.
Sertralin: Never ever SSRI medicine again. This medicine is devils medicine. No one needs SSRI! It damages your mood center controlled by your serotonin.

But then! Then I found Modafinil. It is a substance normally prescribed for narcolepsy. It releases a bit of dopamine like Ritalin, but in a way that doesn’t make you nervous.
Ritalin releases too much norepinephrine, which makes you anxious/nervious.

Modafinil works for basically all my diagnoses. It makes me happy, no suicidal thoughts, no euphoria, happy mood, motivation, no bad mood in the morning, no hyperactivity, no restlessness.

This medicine is the best I’ve ever had. No side effects at all. I started with 50mg and went up to 200mg where I am right now, and I haven’t felt this good for years.

Remember, I got 5 different mental disorders, and this single medicine makes me feel pretty normal.

It is not approved by FDA for ADHD or other mental disorders other than narcolepsy I think, but it should be able to get offlabel for mental disorders.

Modafinil saved my lifed and I am working on getting it offlabel for my mental disorders because it does wonders.

I hope this helps!