You have set a brilliant and necessary intention for us all here.
It is too recognisable what you write. (including the more important countertop!)
We need to take ourselves out of the male chain-gang with their massive tunnel drill pounding through the vapid future of a man-made mountain.
There is karmic healing of the previous generations to be found in continuing the line of our mothers when we wake up and ask ourselves: What am I doing to myself? How is this helping human evolution!? We may redeem them by becoming true to our nature: nurturing, caring, gentle. This can co-exist with duty, devotion and discipline, but serves a larger weft of energies including the sheath of our World Ether, too, which preserves and nourishes who we are as a collective Human race. This is to work with the Isis-Sophia-Mother Maria force, which is made available through being born into our gender.
Every woman is different, but every top athlete must learn there comes a time when the only satisfaction, joy and hope for the future lies in gentleness.

May we all remind ourselves to take ourselves on to our mat (a chair works too) and just BE, BREATHE, ALLOW and surrender to what is.
Happy living in the here (hear) and now (observe quietly)!