Congrats on winning the happy bubbles competition. Thank you for sharing this story. Look at the share of this story as the end to this chapter. Try to find some closure. Make peace, you are not fair to yourself, you were the only friend that he still had and you were not the cause of his mental illness. If necessary print this post or write Craig a last letter, dig a hole and put it under the ground. Forever you can be thankful that it was a turning point in your life 2 times, first with his acting out episode that saved you from the drug use and the second time on hearing the bad news of his death. I don't know if you are a believing person but I am and that is exactly how God works. He takes the hard things in your life and makes something new. Thank you for the life lessons that you give at the end, it is for sure a reminder for each person to cherish what we have, while we still have it.