Beautiful TEARS!

Hey everyone. I have a slight migraine and I am so sure words will fucking fail me but let's do it. Before we progress, let me have your word that you will fully understand if you read raw emotions in this.

It's 11:20 pm and I have cried for a while now. No, this is not another rant... I am just trying to come up with the perfect phrases and classier words to lay down my emotional self on screen.

My tears are from a place of gratitude and evaporating anger. I had a slightly rough evening until now and thanks to my over-obsessing and overthinking about those 'probably' small things that overthinkers turn to major issues plus my short temper working on it, trust me my evening was quite tense.

Then I logged in here.

Being understandably human, I rushed to see how my last post was doing then straight to my wallet. I redeemed my coins and noticed my account value had changed to $411 then wandered back to my blog then back in the wallet to notice the delegated Steem on my account.

If you follow or have ever read my raw pieces, I am a single mum who recently decided going back to school is the only way I get myself out of a revolving misery and get me that dream of being a respected African author. You would be aware I am not in a good place in terms of stability but I am working really hard on changing that!

Back to the delegated Steem and the unending tears of gratitude for a min or two. I rushed to my blog and clicked on this recent rant post and a comment from a while back from an old friend sat pretty on my comment section waiting to mine more tears.

Yoh @erodedthoughts look at you making a strong soul cry. I hope you fucking find what people with big hearts and beautiful souls fucking find. I hope blessings rain on you like the way @deadspace rains on you on Dlive. I hope to fucking Steem good to find a way to deliver these overdue hugs. Thank you old friend. Truly, thank you for even trusting me. For everything especially for being fucking blunt :)

What does delegated Steem mean for me...

It means more interaction here... I can slash my vote (which 'currently' stands at 0.06 so it can be 0.03) so I can reach some really awesome but struggling minnows like me. I understand what that 0.03 or even fewer means especially when they comment on your work.

It can also mean that living with all my three children is on the horizon. After that, we can probably end this rental life and build a home plus maybe a children's home later... For boys only because in my perspective, they are being neglected in Kenya... or a dance studio where talent can see itself in a mirror and that way minimize the teenage boys landing in prison. I probably should stop there but the dream is big and it's one I am willing to work on until I am seventy young.

It means that regardless of the doubts that come and go, Steemit has some amazing friends. That a brother knows no distance and how friendship doesn't even give a damn about my face.

Did I say, you are freaking awesome Beard Gang @erodedthoughts?

That was one long post but hopefully it spreads the appreciation I am feeling!

Thank you for coming.