Good evening. You should not be ashamed of your character and preferences. Many people openly demonstrate their desires even if they are not the same as the majority. I suggest you start your acquaintance with the world of adult role-playing games by getting acquainted with the type of Dom Sub Daddy relationships and you will immediately understand what you need from the relationship and what names it has among the DDLG community. I was thrilled that I could have fun in a relationship that most people don't even know about.