I am the unluckiest person in the world

Unfortunately by nature, I am not good looking and have never had a girlfriend since I was a child. After college, I spent some money and had sex with a woman. What was even more unfortunate was that it was discovered by government surveillance and the government found out that I was bad mouthing the government. This is the tenth year of graduation and when I went for an interview with a company, the company said the government wouldn't let the company hire me and I would have to fend for myself from then on. I am Chinese, born, raised and living in China.