The most influential people in my life.

My life is just starting to get where I am happy with the way I’m living. July - November 2017 was the hardest time of my life so far. September was the worst for me for many reasons. My three year old brother almost died after his third open heart surgery, me and my husband were going through a divorce and severed our ties with each other, I lost friends I thought that I needed, and I found a man who took his own life. Just so many things that broke me as a person. I just want to thank the people that truly saved my life.

Rylan - You will always be my number one. My hero. I look up to you in so many ways even though you’re just 3 years old. I told Paul I don’t even think I could love my own child as much as I love you. You’re so handsome, smart, and innocent. You honestly give me so many reasons to want to be alive, to watch you learn new things, and to see what kind of man you become.

My Parents - Thank you for never letting me go hungry, talking me through big stuff that I can’t handle, and making sure I had a place to call home. You all have taught me so much. I love you.

Emily, Carly, Katie - My three beautiful sisters. Thank you all for making me jewelry, letting me do your make up all the time, and most of all for making me laugh until my insides hurt.

Paul - My husband, my go-to for everything. You make me feel beautiful, which is hard for me. You make me feel wanted, appreciated and loved. I truly appreciate you and everything you do for me. I love you so much and I can’t believe we were split for 5 months. I’ve known you close to a decade and I wouldn’t change one single thing about you. Thank you for being you, thank you for sticking by me when I’m not so easy to be around. Thank you for calming me through my episodes, panic attacks and reminding me to just breathe because it’ll be okay one way or another.

Nikia - You’re my best friend and platonic soulmate. You’re down for whatever’s going on and you make me laugh like no other. (The cold is wall!!) Thank you for showing me what true friendship is. Thank you for helping me back up when I fell so far down, helping me take care of myself, helping me battle my Demons, and being there for me no matter what’s going on. I’ve never had a honest friendship until you. Thank you for slapping sense into me and helping me see others true colors. (Oh and watching me catch that black widow while you screamed every time it would move, HA)

Without you all I wouldn’t even be here. I’m so happy I have encountered such beautiful souls. I’m extremely thankful for you, and everything you all have done. I thank God everyday you all are in my life.