oh I am so sorry to hear that @walkerland, Electric shock therapy is really full on 'and especially back then, it was so much more forceful and barbaric really. That certainly is something that you will carry with you, Samhain is a go time to honour those that have returned to the earth before us and to let go. Maybe do a little ritual honouring and acknowledging your grandmother and what she went through, let her know that she has been heard. Much love to you xxx